How old are you and how old do you act?
I suppose it starts with your ever changing answers. Haphazard? Maybe. Reliable?
Stop looking at numbers and make time serve you. If your not happy with your life then try creating a new one.
Change is so hard but very possible.
Everybody has tough times. Don't let your hard days and experiences harden your life. Become what you want and let the joy you have always wanted so much more of but never had shine all over your life and start today.